This is a moderate emo post i wanna dedicate to Mrs.Concern & Mr.Retard out there.As usual i do not mention their names as it would be as if I'm bad mouthing them.I just wanna post out in my blog for sharing purposes.
First of all,I wanna deeply apologize to the person whom I concern so much as my emo-ness really takes a toll out of me.When I'm angry,everything all will be fired out.When i cool down,I will feel regret,guilty & sad.That's my major weakness of all.You should probably know that.
These few days I don't dare to find you anymore as I scared I will repeat the same mistakes again.Today I finally took the courage & sincere to make it up to you,but you were busy so I just leave you aside let it be,then I thought back maybe I could offer you a helping hand instead to redeem my mistakes that I've done.But you did not tell me what your busy with so well I just carry on with my own stuff then to show my respect to you as each of us has their own privacy.After that you say that I was controlling & forcing you,I was like WHAT THE HELL?He find you most of the time,you no complain him,I find you a while you complain such thing to me?After all sorts of effort I did for you?I deserved to get treated badly?
Here are some of the things I've Done for you so far :
1.Your hand got bitten by some kind of insect,you felt pain & itchy,I suggest you to see doctor but u insisted not too,so I bought medicine from my nearby clinic & purposely went to your office to find you.Your reaction you gave me was rather agitated rather than surprised / happy to see me.
2.You need to work in the morning,reach home need to rush assignments,since I was so free,so why not help you to do some of it to ease your burden since there are some subjects which I'm quite experienced with like your Organization Behavior.You asked me to draw a matrix structure (columns & boxes) & so I did,but later on you told me it was wrong,I was like WTH?You go check internet & all reference books,all of them saying the same thing,but you rather trust your classmates instead to go with a Tree Diagram.In that case,why don't you tell me earlier?Wasted all my effort to do.
3.Finally managed to taught you ice-skating peacefully without any disturbance.It was the happiest moment of my life & your willing to try & learn with courage.I was very proud of you.However,we end up falling down once due to my carelessness & lateness to save you.I tried to avoid falling down directly on your leg by supporting myself with my right palm only & the old injury i got from the last ice skating fall struck me once again with pain but I just endure.Looks like that injury got serious & I'm gonna go for Rehabilitation soon as I will feel pain sometimes.
4.You were the 1st friend I know in class & slowly you introduce me to other friends.Very thankful of that.That time we always SMS & chat on MSN all the time & get to know each other.You taught me to be straightforward & so I did,I told you most of my personal stuff since we are friends & I'm open so no harm telling you,but I did not want to share yours with me.After you know most of my personal characteristics,you basically just ignore ME.Makes no difference to "Using" People to obtain personal benefits.You said you won't tell out my personal matters to other people,how the hell I know would you or would you not since its your mouth,you have the freedom to speak.I was such an Idiot & naive to tell you about myself.
There are still some more but I just list out few of them will do.
I admit I always think too much due to my personality born under the Scorpio Horoscope.But there are somethings I don't mention does not mean it won't happen / never happen.Ok this is what I think regarding,although I do not have solid prove but incidents happening the same day convinces me that it's true.
*Reminder: I'm not stalking you,just based on my daily observation for quite sometime.I don't have the right to control / force you.I always think back why do I deserved to be mistreated this way!
Mr.Retard's Habits :
1.Mr.Retard always online when you online.
2.Mr.Retard will not change his song/pause his song/maintain the same song via MSN Plug-In for sometime when chatting with you.This is noticeable when I'm chatting with you,then all of a sudden you just plain IGNORE ME.
3.Mr.Retard always SMS with you in college almost every time & just anywhere.
4.Mr.Retard is willing to fetch you go anywhere on purpose upon your request as he has a car.
Well Mr.Retard tends to be a pretender in front of you & maybe other friends so most of them got deceived totally except me & maybe a few not close to him.
Let me list out some of the bad deeds he has done to me:
1.Flame me in via Facebook message inbox.He asked me to stay away from you as he knows that I'm close to you.Ok nvm..I endure~
2.Flame me once again just because I played those "Who is your lover Today Applications" in Facebook that your name appeared in it.His gang of course support & helped him so they all did the same.Ok nvm..I endure~
3.Shoot in my wall post showing that my house does not have internet so I was forced to go cybercafe to play.My friends helped me shoot back him of cos.
4.I did not pay attention in class as I was busy rushing last minute work.I made a small mistake,so I just wanna double confirm by referring to my notes & all of sudden he came mocking me saying I'm a NOOB! Ok Nvm..Endure~
5.Shoot my post regarding giving irrelevant final exams tips proudly to others which in fact in the end were not accurate at all,but still felt proudly himself as if he tried his best to help others. Ok Nvm..I endure~Helped?More like Misleading others~
6.Went with few friends for ice-skating.You don't know how 2 skate so you request me to teach you,fine with me as my ice-skating skills were average,but he's just being selfish not to let you go & keep holding your hand.When I wanted to teach you,of course I got scolded from him as he mentioned he will teach you himself. Ok nvm..Fine by me..I endure~ In the end,did he taught you? NO of course,he can't even tie his ice-skating shoes tight & skate properly for god's sake,still wanna teach you? More like making you fall down more.The purpose of organizing an ice-skating trip is to learn / skate,not to go there waste time standing on the ice all the time.
There are still some more but I just list out few of them will do.
I really don't know what is so good in Mr.Retard other than criticizing,insulting,underestimate others.In terms of academic,my results surpass him as well as Curriculum.I play golf,tennis,badminton,swimming,ice-skating,pool & etc.Of course gaming too but not DOTA as I will get addicted to scold vulgarities non-stop.What he does is just DOTA,play,enjoy,skip lecture classes ~.~
Because of you :
1. I change my living life style from a hardcore gamer back to the right track as a student
2. I quit online games & focus on studies for my own future
3. I got bullied
4. I got back stab / bad mouth
5. I did not change class
6. I got injured mentally & physically
There are still some more but I just list out few of them will do.
Hope you can OPEN YOUR EYES BIG & LOOK AT THIS.
No one is perfect in this world however no one is born to be mistreated as well.
Don't judge a person by just it's looks.